Quickly running out of spoons, homework, tears, amazing friends

It is not even noon yet and I'm almost out of spoons. For those of you who aren't familiar with spoon theory, I wake up with so many spoons (energy) a day and once they are gone, they are gone. I can't just drink coffee or an energy drink and keep going. Today, I seem to have awoken with fewer spoons in my daily arsenal than usual. I've only been up a few hours and I am ready for a nap, a fact for which I have spent energy or spoons crying over and then more energy forcing myself to stop crying and take the golden opportunity of a quite house to do homework. Well, I'm not quite ready for homework at the moment. Kind of need a few more minutes. 

We went to lunch with a friend yesterday and it was wonderful! We talked abut a lot of things and she gave Amanda her graduation gift. It was a card with a check inside. Neither of us looked at the amount else we probably would have made her take i back and most certainly not allowed her to pay for lunch. We had a gift card for the restaurant we went to and had tried to give it to her but she refused to take it. Anyway, we didn't actually look until we were on our way home because we needed to get gas in the jeep and we nearly crashed the car. It was $200! It was too much! We are so grateful and humbled by this gift and neither of us could thank our friend and her husband enough. We are going to have to do something really special for them and soon. 

Well, other than that, some changes will be taking place in Amanda's and my life. We are going to really crack down on traffic within our house and some other things and really work hard on getting some writing out to magazines and competitions. We are both also going to work really hard on getting novels plotted, up on storyboards, written, and polished. Then we will send those out too. 

But for now, I am going to do my best with getting homework finished for the day.  

Ridiculousness, school, dog sitting, Amanda

The red head standing in the middle, that's my 

Fiance, Amanda, receiving her Master's diploma. I am super exited she finally has it and that the schooling part for her is over. Her novel isn't but she will be working on it when she returns home.

There she is again on the far right. 

At the moment I am dog sitting my neighbor's dog, totally hanging out watching Ridculousness. Its stupid, its funny, and its mindless enough for a day of semi-relaxation that I am really loving it! My neighbor took her husband and kids to Boise over night so she could see her parents and Grandma. Her parents live in Arizona and were coming up to see her Grandmother. It;s a quick visit and they will be back today sometime. So far, I've let their dog out several times, watched some TV, and have done homework. It's so quiet and nice. 

So far, I've made it through my first week of this term. I had a lot of reading this week. I've had to do a list of value statements, do an author bio, and it looks like I have to launch a website for my writing. That freaked me out a little because I don't have anything published (aside from fanfic and I wouldn't exactly use that to represent me). It has to be an active site and paired up with a facebook page and twitter account or one other media platform. I am so dreading this, but maybe it won't be so bad. I can always deactivate stuff or put it on hold until I need it again. In my photography class, I have played with my camera and the settings, and played with a couple types of photography. 

At the moment, I am very tired and ready to take a nap. I can't very well go to bed because I still have a lot of laundry to do. With that comes cleaning off my bed and putting clean sheets on. I also have dinner to eat. I managed to get my desk cleaned off and the bathroom cleaned. I'd say that's progress! 

Exciting, annoying, and sleepy things...

I began my new term of school yesterday. So far all of the course work looks interesting and I've already learned quite a bit from the first two chapters of my new media and publishing class. Unfortunately some of it scares the crap out of me. I am apparently going to be making an author website this term. I also have to do an author bio and make my 'brand'. The author bio isn't quite as scary, at least it's not as scary as coming up with a brand. I'm sure I will figure it out though. I haven't started reading the homework for my photography class but I am sure that will be fun. 

Homework would go a lot smoother if I wasn't so tired all the time. I go to bed at a reasonable hour, well reasonable for me, which is usually between 10 and midnight. But, I have been sleeping in to 10 or 11 am and then around 1 or 2 in the afternoon I am so exhausted and tired that I end up taking a nap. Sometimes I can fight it off until 3pm but the last two days I haven't had much success. This really doesn't help me when I have homework and other things to do. 

Amanda is in Boston at the moment. She went to do her last residency, teach her class, and finally, finally graduate! I am so proud of her but I really miss her and wish she was home. I told her if I can get my homework taken care of, I would have a surprise for her. Well, I am certainly going to try! I can't say what it is in case she happens to read my blog while she is away. 

Narcisa is upset with me because I have been spending a lot of time outside at the neighbors house and not inside with her. But when I am inside she's busy sleeping in her bed or on the top shelf of my closet- she thinks I haven't seen the mess she made to get up there-, or she's running all over the house, hiding under rugs, or sitting in the window. She doesn't want to come sit with me and we can't play with her 'dot' during the day because its too bright for her to see it. She does come and visit me for a few minutes at night to lick my neck. I think she was weened too soon and I'm not sure she will ever grow out of it. Galen never did but at least he went for my clothes or blankets and not my neck.

My exciting news is that I am now on the Pagan Ministry Council for the IEPG. Its something I have wanted to do for quite awhile and I was really honored that I was asked before the general inquiry went out. I have so much to do now between homework and council stuff, not too much... It's basically research, writing up rituals and classes, and helping out here and there, and I love it all! But with that said, I need to put myself to bed so I can try to get up at a reasonable time tomorrow and get back to work.   

Not feeling so great

Today's blog is short. 

I'm not feeling very well today. It's depression and fibromyalgia and fatigue. 

It's also because tomorrow Amanda is leaving for Boston and I always worry. I also hate being without her. 

So, today I'm not doing very much, especially since the house it a bit chaotic with her mess of packing. 

*sigh* 

There's so much I want to do but just don't have the energy to do. 

I think I am going to con my neighbor into helping me story board a book while Amanda is gone, and get some of it done before I have to start school up again next week.  

Enjoying the damn day, finger, Fibromyalgia stuff, and Outlander.

I have some time off from school so today, I decided I was going to relax, and catch up with a Youtube Vlogger- Cory Williams at DudeLikeHELLA. He also does The Mean Kitty and SMP Films and I have been following his vlogs for a couple of years now. So, yeah, I watched about a month and half's worth of vlogs today and while I was at it, I got back to work on a blanket I am making for my cousin Shi-chan. Her colors are dark purple and black and I am doing the wave pattern pictured above.

I think I might have fractured my finger. Aanda's parents keep urging me to go to the ER for it since that's where I will be sent anyway. I don't want to do that because it will cost too much and what's the pint when they aren't going to do anything more than splint and tape it. I can make a run to Wal-mart tomorrow and get the stuff and do it myself for far less money.

I learned some stuff about fibromyalgia. I read a study that talked about fibro sufferers suffering from light, sound, and smell sensitivity. Well that explain why loud noises, bright lights like the sun, and some smells really bother me. Oh and I apparently need to find and read a blog by someone who talks about fibromyalgia too. A friend recommended it to me.

I started watching Outlander with Amanda's mom tonight. I like it so far and will probably continue to enjoy it. But I like period type dramas.

Unintended break, Captian America dress, too much and D&D

It was too good to be true

Somehow this term I ended up taking an unexpected and unintended break from the blogging world. I think I just got overwhelmed with homework and everything going on, with the people around me and so on that I just kind of pushed things to the wayside until I could get a break enough to get my head back where it needs to be. I will get more into that later.

The pretty ring set pictured above was supposed to be my engagement/wedding ring set from Amanda. We found it on a great deal online and I was so excited the moment it came in the mail. Sadly, it has to be returned. The plating began to chip off right away. I couldn't believe how fast it did and I babied the rings. There is definite disappointment, but I will find something else.

Okay, so while my school workload wasn't nearly as bad as it has been in the past couple of terms, the work took just about as much time to complete. It was fun and it was frustrating. Especially when my instructor in my art class couldn't seem to make up her mind whether or not I was supposed to submit my self critique just in the discussion board or also in the main posting area. It was weird but hey, I have a B in the class, so that's all I care about at the moment. The other class I did very well in and actually learned some useful things, was reminding of things pertaining to writing and I am excited about. 

Summer doesn't seem to be shaping up to be smooth and relaxing this year It has become jam packed against my wishes. To kick it off, we had insanity from Amanda's Mom while she was stressing which in turn drive everyone nuts. No, really, I had people who came to Amanda's Graduation party stressed out because of her. Not good. 

Anyway, we had the IEPG camp out and I was very busy before and during. I had a lot of fun though, which was the most important thing. The night we came home from the camp out we had company, Amanda's cousins from Seattle. And then we had her Graduation Party. Now she won't Graduate until July 18th, but we did the party early so any money she got from that she could take with her. Why? Because her school insisted that she have medical insurance and wanted to charge her 700 dollars for insurance she can't use here in her home state and will only need for 10 days. She absolutely has to have it. No if and or buts about it. She managed to get a discount so it's only 200 buck. Well that's how much she got from friends and family at her party. Seriously, this country is so screwed up as far as health care is concerned. Before if you didn't have insurance, you just paid out of pocket. Now you have to do that and you have to pay a penalty fee for not being able to afford it. What the hell kind of sense does that make? Moving on.

This week we have the July Moon, which I am doing tonight and I have no idea what we are doing for the 4th yet, but it will be something. After that Amanda leaves for Boston on the 8th. At some point we have her family reunion, which I really don't want to go to. To be honest, I don't like a good majority of her family. Hell, I don't like a good majority of mine, those that I know. We are supposed to drive down near Orifino to a camp ground and will be hot, I'll be around people who stare and make me feel awkward and who I have nothing to say to and even though I probably have some things in common with them, they are too judgmental for me to want to deal with. The upside is that there are a few who are nice and I actually do like. 

I know we have some other things going on this summer, I just can't remember them right off the top of my head. There are some IEPG things happening that I will go to. 

We've begun playing D&D with the neighbors every couple of days after their kids go to bed. It;s been nice and a lot of fun! Honestly, I think if I hadn't made friends with my neighbor and could escape over to her house as easily, I might have lost it. I think I have surpassed my limit of shit-tolerance from Amanda's parents. They are good people and I do love them but lately there are days that I find myself almost hating them and that's when I know I need to get away. I don't want to hate them. 

Lastly, my favorite Avenger is Capt. America and Amanda got me the Capt. America dress from Torrid when it became available. She bought herself the Loki dress, which I don't have a full picture of at the moment. I have a red cover up to go with it and I want to find some red shoes eventually. Please excuse my hair, for making it cute, the wind killed it that day. Oh and that dress is actually a little bit big. I am going to have to take it in, especially at the top. No that's not my house, we were at the clubhouse where Aunt Lola live. We did it there so we could swim afterward.