tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-813226226435267302.post8820815342204585575..comments2023-07-16T06:16:57.824-07:00Comments on Foreigner in my own backyard: Dump timecrimsonlanternhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09586441423386494027noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-813226226435267302.post-80492477281796779232013-08-17T20:04:02.278-07:002013-08-17T20:04:02.278-07:00It's okay, Christine, I don't think there ...It's okay, Christine, I don't think there is really anything anyone CAN do to help me except to in being as supportive as they can be. <br /><br />I don't feel like I am dying necessarily when I panic. It is more like I am spinning out of control, can't breathe, and can't stop crying. the really bad ones make me feel like I can't sit still. I'm constantly moving, grabbing hold of things, scratching, and pushing them away. Sometimes I've scratched myself, hit myself, but never anything or anyone else.<br /><br />What pisses me off is that if I am broken and weak enough to have these attacks then why can't I just break completely so I can start healing? I get so angry that something inside of me just can't quite let go and finish the break, that something is still hanging on and I just want to strangle it. I feel like I am never going to be over these episodes until that happens. I don't even know if any of that makes sense. <br />crimsonlanternhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09586441423386494027noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-813226226435267302.post-87257957818816255742013-08-15T08:13:11.798-07:002013-08-15T08:13:11.798-07:00I'm sorry you're having such a hard time w...I'm sorry you're having such a hard time with your health right now. I wish I knew what would help. <br /><br />I used to have panic attacks on a regular basis years ago. The first time I had one I literally thought I was having a heart attack or something. It was frightening. And yes, it's embarrassing and humiliating when it happens around people. When it was over I always felt like a colossal pain between the hip pockets.<br /><br />One day I had a panic attack and went through convincing myself that I wasn't dying: My body telling me fight or flight, my emotions telling me I'm dying and my mind telling me that I wasn't dying. In the midst of my panic I got angry and fed up and said, "Fuck it! I'm just going to lay here and die then!" I didn't of course, and for some reason that did the trick. I never had a panic attack after that. <br /><br />I hope something happens for you that will get you past your panic cycles. They're awful. :(Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16414080123441313048noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-813226226435267302.post-39880418515211154382013-08-14T20:16:44.911-07:002013-08-14T20:16:44.911-07:00*hugs* I want you to feel more like yourself. I t...*hugs* I want you to feel more like yourself. I think after October you will be able to breathe. Right now everything is just getting worse and worse it seems. It will get better though. Just believe that honey. ddshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11561186803031542520noreply@blogger.com