They said: "Blah blah blah" & Going back to college apparently.

So, had my appointment with ITT Tech today. It was a really nice meeting, got a lot of questions answered, pretty much narrowed down what area of study I am going for, and will be going back tomorrow for an appointment with financial aid. That's mostly the scary part. Grants and a possible scholarship okay, but student loans... Ehh *cringe* I really hate the thought of loans because with loans there is interest and payments and being in debit and lets face it, I'm already in debit and not really looking forward to anymore.

But I took my information to my parents house and talked to them. Called my Grandma and talked to her and told my Cousin Shi-chan about it. With Their support and the support of my GF, I was feeling pretty good and like I might be able to do this school thing again. Frankly, getting a degree that's not in English or Creative writing scares me because writing has been my unfaltering, unwavering dream since I was 13. This degree, the one I am enrolling in, is Computer and Electronics Engineering Technology. Basically I would be fixing computers and electronics. But I think even if I get through school and start working, in the mean time I can still write and even after that I can still write. It's not like I want to be some big famous author, but I would like to make the best sellers list at least once. And really, to be quite honest, I would just like to have a couple of books published. I've never written for fame but for myself and for people to enjoy my stories.

BUT...

The GF called her brother to update him. Now we had previously cut of her brother and his wife due to some really horrible things they had said and done to the GF's parents. That aside we are apparently on talking and friendly terms with them. Well, GF's brother had to go and rain on the little "finally something positive and moving forward" parade. Apparently his online school is better where as mine where I get to actually have hands on experience sucks. But then again he's been trying to get his degree in the same field for over 10 years and I can basically do it at ITT Tech in two years at the most.

And then there is the fact that we are apparently going to the Zoo with them on Saturday. I kind of want to but I kind of don't. Supposedly things have changed with the Gf's brother and his wife, supposedly things are better, supposedly this and supposedly that but then everyone told me the wife was better before I saw her again and it was worse. She was one of my best friends and then shit hit the fan within the family and it was like I was looking at a different person. It was like walking on egg shells and glass, one wrong word spoken, one wrong move and there was hell to pay. I'm really not looking to welcoming that kind of stress back into my life but then again, what if this time it really is different and things really have changed for the better? Still, I'm nervous and don't want things to be a competition again. I don't like competing against people in that "who's got what that's better or does what that's better" and what not.

*sigh* Well, I suppose I should decide if I want to play some Guild Wars or watch a movie for the next few hours then hit the hay.

Some days

Yesterday I called about that job interview I had last week. I was turned down yet again. This is getting ridiculous and I've just about had it and think that going in guns blazing looking really pissed off is about the only way I will ever get anyone to take me seriously... Then again I just might end up in jail. O.o But hey at least these people were nice and didn't give me the run around like so many other places *cough* Borders *cough* Wal-mart and both of those places repeatedly. I figure if they can hire most of my friends and some of my family why not me. I certainly have better work histories than a lot of them. Anyway, I decided that I am finished looking for a job for awhile and going to pursue college again. So I have an appointment later today with an ITT Tech admissions guy. Dad told me they will give me a really big sales pitch but I don't care. I just want to some questions answered and to see if their programs are worth investing in. Also, I want to know if I will qualify for Pell Grants else there is no way in hell I can pull it off.

I've had a new story idea come up that will make a rather nice fantasy/romance/possible tragedy novel. I've got some character outlines written up, a map partially drawn, and know hoe the story will start and a few plot points. I actually started the first page yesterday with a working title and "Chapter One". And that's as far as I got.

Dad's on vacation on again so we've been playing Guild Wars off and on, when I can get over to my parent's house. He's helping me with Nightfall because he's farther in it. So far so good, we knocked out two missions and a quest and we'll probably knock out some more this evening.

A Happy Day!

Recently my laptop fan went out and my Dad ordered me a new one. Luckily it was inexpensive and today it arrived. I installed it all by myself and now my laptop is up and running again, for which I am very excited! So far so good and what's that? I don't hear a thing. No more noisy fan for me. The above picture isn't my fan but a very close match.

Also, today I had an job interview with Family Video. I think the interview went pretty well. I certainly walked out of there with more confidence and a lighter heart than I went in. I don't know if I have the job but I feel like this time I actually have some hope.

As for Guild Wars, my Mom has been letting me borrow her computer in the evenings while I am at my parent's house to play with my Dad. Dad finally beat Prophecies and is now working on Factions. I too have to do all the missions in Factions because the first time around I did not have the Shiro book. So I'll be beating it again along with my Dad and maybe this time around I will have all the supplies and plat to get the Elite Canthan armor I've wanted for quite some time. We are also working on Nightfall and Eye of the North.

I have some sad news to report for a member of my family. My Cousin Tony recently hurt his shoulder a few days ago. A few years ago he was in a horrible car accident and nearly lost his life. He hasn't had a lot of feeling in one shoulder, his arm or his hand since and hurt it on the job. Since the second injury he managed to knock his shoulder out of place. I can honestly say I never ever want to see him pop it back into place again. It was awful and the sound isn't pleasant and it's even less so seeing him in pain. So far, he seems to be doing better.

Good news family wise is that my Grandparents are home safely from their annual three month visit to Texas. Grandma would like me to come over this weekend to help her unload some things from her car and to visit. It will be really nice to see Grandpa and her again.

Well, I am off to play!

Sick and Annoyed!

My first set of Elite Armor- Flame Forged.

Woke up at noon today feeling awful. It seems I have caught something but what it is, I'm not sure. It's not sinus infection or strep throat or even a cold but it's something. So aside from not being able to talk very well and having that itchy feeling in my throat that makes me want to cough all the time, I have a case of the sneezes. I could be an awesome strange sound effect artist today what with all the new and weird sounds that are coming out of me. Apparently a cat of mine is sick too because they left a mess in the dining room for me to clean up. Yuck!

Now for the annoyed part. I finally got to have some time to play Guild Wars with my Dad. We haven't been able to play together as much recently due to one thing or another. Anyway, the folks at Guild Wars added a ton of really awesome new stuff. You can buy a pack to make other characters you play mercenaries for another character. You can take up to 7 Heros in your party now, there is a new island with missions and quests and challenges, ect... And everyone and their dog, cat, ferret, and fish has been on line playing the last couple of days. I haven't been able to much of anything. We worked on my my hero build one night, play for like and hour or two another night and that's about it.

Here at home, I haven't been able to do much of anything because there are so many people on, that there is some serious lag. I'll be in the middle of running, or in a battle and everything just pauses on screen. When it gets moving again I'm either dead, suddenly in a new battle, in battle, or farther back than I was when everything paused. It was actually pretty bad last night but I was going to a Zaishen Vanquish quest. So I get it, get to where I needed to be, and start it. I was patient through the hour and half of game play filled with pauses and lag, got almost everything killed, and then boom, I died again and that little message saying that my "party was defeated, return to outpost" pops up on my screen. I was WTF?! I was almost done UGH!

So I don't know if I am going to try and do anything with Guild Wars today. I don't really want to be one of those people hanging out in outposts not playing just standing there creating an over abundance of traffic which makes it difficult for others who are serious about wanting to play, play. I guess it depends if I go to my parents house or not.