Good night my grouchy duke, Galen Galadmir

When I was 15 and very soon to turn 16, I told my parents I didn't want a birthday party or anything big. I just wanted a cat for Yoda, my other kitty. My Dad groaned about it but my Mom was all for it. She found Galen, who was really too little to be taken from his Mama at the time but the old couple who had him and the rest of his litter were just going to give him away any way. So I got this cute little black cat who had to be fed kitten formula via an eye dropper. He grew up grouchy and was an ass to mostly everyone but he had really sweet moments. For instance, he loved your pain. If I cried, he would let me pet him. He also really loved pizza. He'd steal it right off your plate if you weren't paying attention. 

Saturday night we took Galen to a 24 hour emergency vet clinic to be put to sleep. He'd had bronchitis for quite awhile and we'd tried medicine, antibiotics from the vet, and nothing seemed to be working. He lost weight and muscle mass could barely walk much less breathe, and Amanda and I both think he basically hung on long enough for us to return home from our trip to Seattle. We told him it was okay to go. We think he passed before the euthanasia was injected into his system. 

I miss him. I keep thinking he's in the other room drooling on something or glaring at someone. 

I am pissed at the nurse at the 24 hour clinic. I am not angry with her for telling us that by law they have to report and take a brain sample to test for rabies. I understand that as much as I know and understand that Galen was an indoor cat his whole life and only bit Amanda's Mom by accident when she was giving him his medicine while we were gone. What I am angry about is that she decided to tell us how they were going to do while he was still alive, in the room, and after we'd already decided and given in the okay for them to keep him and cremate him for us. We didn't have a place we could have taken him to for burial that night and we have dogs in our neighborhood. And I am angry with how long the nurse drug it out. I am angry with the doctor because she came in and wanted to put my cat on a cold metal slab when we'd already said we wanted to hold him. 

The only reason I didn't wait to take Galen to my vet was because he was suffering. I will be writing a review for the clinic. I will be writing a letter to the clinic's management but this will be done when I have had time to cool down and get my head on straight. I don't want the nurse to lose her job. I just want her to think before she speaks next time. 

Birthday, New Term, Water Incident, and every time I look in the mirror, I freak myself out!

My break week between terms in school wasn't so much a break as it was a whirlwind of go go go! 

The first couple of days of the break I was sick from period crap. Then my friend Fiona came up. I honestly can't remember everything we did, I know there was shopping and much running around along with some Midsomer Murders watching.

 

Thursday, the day of my birthday and the Crow Moon, Amanda, Fiona, and Several of our IEPG friends threw me a surprise birthday party right after our full moon ritual. It really was a surprise and what's really weird, I got the feeling that there was something going on around me but didn't know what. Mostly I felt incredibly left out of something and as soon as everyone screamed surprise at me, I knew what it was and then ran from the room. Amanda made me go back in. It was a Monster High birthday party and I loved it! 

After the small party, we went out to eat with one of our friends and Fiona. Of course we giggled and laughed and talked about having a wine and painting party, pets, inappropriate things, ect... It was fun!

Friday night I had Fiona bleach my hair because I want a little more color than just the flat black that it's been for several years. Now, I freak myself out every time I look in the mirror. I am waiting a few days to put the teal and purple in because my hair needs a break and so do the few spots of my scalp that were chemically burned. The burns weren't too bad until I scratched them, which for me, if I scratch my head too hard at all, I get a little sore. 

The new term starts tomorrow. I will have critical thinking in philosophy and the English language or rather Grammar. I've already looked them over and I will have a lot of homework this term but I am hoping things go much smoother than the last couple of terms. 

Lastly, at around 6 this morning, Narcisa decided to knock a glass of water over on me. Amanda had moved her water glass on the ledge above our bed toward my side to keep Narcisa out of it. But Narcisa only followed it and knocked it off on me. Water soaked into my pillows, the bed, and all down the front of me. That cat had better be glad that I love her because I was not happy.   

What do the sofa, a heating pad, a laptop, and a book on Germanic Religion have in common?

So what does the sofa, a heating pad, a laptop, and a book on Germanic religion all have in common? 

Me.

That's right. In lieu of all the sewing projects I had lined up for this break, I am just not feeling up to them. Yesterday I spent most of the day in bed and in the bathroom. Today, things seemed better but I made it to the library and after about half an hour I had to leave and come home to clean up. I really hate this PCOS period crap. So, now I am curled up on the sofa with a heating pad on my stomach for the cramps. I've played around on facebook for bit and will be picking the above book back up with the hopes of finishing it today. I'm not going to let my break go to waste! If I can't sew, then I will study things of my choosing. Also, I really do need to get this book back to the friend who lent it to me. I've had it for months!

The book itself has been an interesting read. I think every thing the author write about Freyja I already learned from another book. But, it is always good to have refreshers and I am learning more about Njord and Freyr. So far I have really enjoyed it. I'd buy the book myself but the cheapest I have seen was 74 dollars on Amazon. So I'll just enjoy it, take my notes, and return it to my friend. 

Also, the rest of this week is going to be busy. 

Narcisa was up to her antics again this morning. She likes to jump up and hang from the curtains in our bedroom. She's pulled the curtains down before but this time, she managed to bend the curtain rod. So now we need to go get another curtain rod. Amanda thinks if we tried to bend it back it would only break. It looks like we need to trim Narcisa's claws again. Oh and yesterday, she couldn't get enough of me. She had to be with me and on me all day. Today, I am chopped liver. Galen is off hiding because he doesn't want us to give him pills and Ellie is curled up on our bed. 

Lazy day, cats, sewing projects, studying of happier things.

Welcome to homework with Narcisa. She's the reason I'm constantly having to sweep cat hair out from between my computer keys and this was a day she was behaving. Most of the time she tells me that I don't really need to take notes and walks over my pen while I am writing only to sit on my hand. She loves to stand on the mouse pad or lay across the keys or better yet, to knock everything off my desk and steal my pens. She's ever so helpful! The video was taken a couple of weeks ago.

Galen is still sick but we've talked to the vet and he's got another round of antibiotics. He is still eating, drinking, and using the litter box, and even gets excited for treats, so I am hopeful. I went to a candle magic class and a girl there talked about how she rolled a candle in catnip and did a spell for her cat when it was sick. Apparently it worked pretty well. So, yesterday I got out a tea light candle, carved Galen's name and the word Heal into it, sprinkled some catnip and added a few of his hairs to it. I then focused my energy and asked Freyja, if it was to be, if she would be willing to help Galen heal. Then I burned the candle. I thought about doing it this everyday but maybe once a week would be better. 

I have officially finished this school term. Thank the Gods! I'm coming out okay, passing both classes with better grades than I was shooting for. Frankly I am so happy to be rid of that term I could dance. I have a week off and then I start the next term, which is critical thinking in philosophy and the english language- grammar. Both look like lots of intensive homework, but I am okay with that. I am sure I will have a grievance or two later on, but for now I am choosing to be excited for the new classes. 

I have some sewing projects that I wanted to get accomplished. Mostly its shirts and I wanted to start Amanda's and my t-shirt quilt. I even did the design mock ups last night for my shirts. But I don't know that any of my sewing will actually happen this time around. For one, we have to take the car down to Fiona's so her Dad can look at it and see what needs to be repaired. Fiona, Amanda, and I are going to Seattle in the middle of March. More on that in another post. Anyway, we are doing that Tuesday and coming back on Wednesday, and bringing Fiona back with us. Thursday is my birthday and a Full Moon Ritual with our group. I'll probably spend the rest of the week after that getting ready for the next term and I have a feeling it will be extremely slow going. 

I'm having trouble with my period again. I've been having it for the last two months and the day before yesterday it decided to go into overdrive. So I get to wear the big monster pads that are almost like diapers, sit on a towel, and stay close to my bathroom, which is starting to look like a crime scene again. I'm trying to keep it as cleaned up as possible but sometimes, I only have enough energy to wash my hands and get back to the bed or my desk chair. I haven't even had anything to eat today. And I am so very tired. So, I am going to lay in bed today and watch a couple of the movies I've been wanting to watch for awhile and get some reading, of my choosing, done.  And if anyone is wondering, yes, I am eating lots of iron rich food and protein and taking an iron supplement.