Some Photography pics, Ghost shows, and Cats...

Freyja

Homework for today was still life and playing with light. My subject of choice was my statue of Freyja. I set up a tri-fold presentation board in the dining room- because we have a large window to let in natural light-, threw black fabric over it, and darkened the room for some shots. I used an LED flashlight for other shots as well. 

I really like this one because of the overhead direction of the light

For this one I used a table cloth I found in the craft/dining room. 

Narcisa

While I was setting up with the table cloth, Narcisa decided I had made the scene expressly for her.

She didn't even want to move when I set Freyja down. She's kind of giving me cross eyes as if to say "Pbbt!"

Ellie wanted to have her picture taken too. 

I picked up the Witches & Pagans magazine this month. So far I have read the Heathen articles, an article on Hestia, a reader's spiritual journey article, and one on Green Magic. I have a couple more that I want to read as well. There was an advertisement for Hekate's Sickle Festival. Taking place on Halloween/ Samhain weekend, it looks really interesting and fun. I would love to go, but Amanda and I don't think that we will be able to manage it this year. Perhaps next year. The magazine is accepting submissions for a couple of things and I might submit something eventually. I am going to keep an eye on what they want and go from there.  

So while I am doing homework today; tonight my ghost shows come back to SYFY. I've been watching Ghost Hunters and Paranormal Witness for several years now and enjoy them. It's time for fall when they come back on the air with new episodes- although I have been feeling the pull of autumn for a couple of weeks now. 

Well, I am taking a break from my photography class for the day in favor of writing my new media publishing final paper. 

If my fingers rest on the keys, that counts as effort.

I have been so listless the last couple of days and mostly apathetic. When I say mostly, I don't really feel anything until I start thinking about trying to write or to read a book and then I just get upset because I have absolutely no drive whatsoever to anything. I am upset that it took me two hours to write a simple e-mail yesterday, something that should have only taken ten minutes.

I've taken naps in the last couple of days because I am so tired after taking my medicine. It's turning me into a zombie and I should just stop taking it. Except that I can't because I read up on it and if you quit cold turkey then it'll be like you have the flu. And I've felt that just from missing my pill one day. I should just deal with the clinic's long asinine phone system to leave a message with my med doctor but I don't like her and the phone system is a pain in the ass. And there is that I don't have much drive to deal with it.

It's American Footballs season again. Have I ever told you how much I loathe American Football? It's a long drawn out process of men lining up to slam into each other. And it almost always takes long than 4 hours. I just don't have the patience for it and I don't like the commentators anyway. I foresee myself spending many hours in my room. Many hours. I may never come out again except to eat, use the bathroom, and leave the house.

Persistent Heartburn has been plaguing me. The tums aren't helping too much any more, just taking the edge off. So I need to find something else, over the counter, until I can get back into the doctor to stop this. since I have the heartburn already, I might as well drink the juice I like. I adore orange juice and cran-grape juice but I don't drink juice very often because of the heartburn. I think I will have ravioli tonight too.

Tonight is the season premier of Ghost Hunters. I am excited!!! I think Paranormal Witness is on tonight as well.  I really enjoy both shows and it will be nice to lose myself in them for a couple of hours. Then I might just go back to bed.

I went looking for some short stories to refurbish and send into some short story contests but the one I really want is M.I.A. Apparently I only have it in hard copy and that copy must be back in Kansas at my parents house. That's kind of depressing because I really loved it and can't remember it well enough (the dialogue was really good) to be able to rewrite it. I did find one that I wrote for college that I might rework. I have an erotic short but I high doubt there are any erotic/BDSM short story contests listed in Amanda's magazine. I'll have to find some online. And I guess I will just have to write some more.

Well, I am off to find my snack!

Out of control...

Things in my little corner of the world have grown very complicated and I am stuck feeling very much like a boiling pot of anger and high strung tension that is ready to burst, raining down vengeful wrath on all who are in my wake. No joke, I'm serious.

I've mostly come to terms with moving back to Idaho. It never takes me long to get settled with an idea or notion. I'm not saying that I am flaky, just that I adapt and adjust pretty darn well to new or altered situations. I still haven't told my Grandparents but I will eventually, when I am ready.


The weekend family problem with my cousin Amanda has gotten a little better and a little worse in some ways. For the better, my Cousin had to sign over temporary custody of her daughter to my Aunt. For the worse, She lied to the social work on so many levels. My uncle used to be a bouncer at a strip club and also at a bar and had a few battery charges against him that were dropped, but she used that against my Aunt and Uncle so now my Uncle can't live in his own damn house while her daughter is there. Also, my Aunt only has custody of the little girl until Cousin Amanda goes into some family treatment program that's supposed to help her get of drugs and alcohol.  Cousin Amanda give up pills and booze? Maybe long enough to get her daughter back but as soon as she has her and is off the radar, she'll go back to using. And she's supposed to get rid of Shelby, but we all know she hasn't because my Aunt heard him talking in the background of their phone call today.

There is more to this horrible situation, like the little girl being scared and afraid to let go of my Aunt or have my aunt out of her sight. There's that she's telling people that she hates her mom and she hates Shelby and that they both hurt her. All of it just makes me furious! Especially when I know she's going to be put back in that situation all over again.

Once again I find myself asking why all the bad people get everything they want while all the good people have to eat shit.

Now on to school. I've had my ups and downs with school, but that is to be expected. However, last night, I just about blew my top. I finally got to meet the instructor who is supposed to be teaching my DC Electronics class and he is a massive dick! Everything he said and did just rubbed me wrong, especially when he treated my lab partner and I like we were idiots. Worse, he was condescending and rude, impatient. And he talked about the class to his Senior students as if we were all a bunch of idiots right in front of us. I can honestly say that I will be extremely glad to be away from him when I transfer after I move. Oh and I met the new department chair for my department, he's kind of a jerk too.

And today hasn't been the easiest of days on the home front either. My back has been bothering me a lot. I can walk and move around but I can't stand as long as I have been able to and I have pain shooting down my leg. I really don't like taking my pain meds, but today I really had to. If that wasn't enough, I had the hiccups all day long! That was really annoying. Plus my Aunt came over and ranted at me and then my mom came down and told me what I was and wasn't going to do and for the rest of the day she bothered me every ten minutes. She needed this or that or wanted me to do this or do that. I lost my temper a few times.

All that aside, I got to sort of watch Ghost Hunters and Paranormal Witness on SyFy tonight. That was nice. I really find those shows interesting. Just for curiosities sake, I even went online to see if there were any paranormal groups up in Idaho. There are, not that I will be joining in anytime soon, but it's nice to know they are there if I ever want to check them out.