Spring is here!

Happy belated Ostara! I hope everyone had a great start to Spring. Nature had a very bizarre fit and decided to give us rain, snow, thunder and hail, sunshine, and a windstorm all in one day. Not only that but it was a such a strange cycle of each throughout the day.

Skoora and I spent Ostara with a friend down in the Sliver Valley. We had dinner with her and spent the evening chatting into the midnight hours. Yesterday we spent the day talking and we watched a fun movie but I ended up dozing through most of it. Happily, I got the chance to kidnap my friend and bring her up to spend the night at our house, which was nice for her as well since she isn't able to get out of the Sliver Valley very often. Unfortunately I have to take her home tonight.

That was this week.

Last weekend and the week and weekend before it, we spent going back and forth to Moscow. We spent some time with Skoora's cousin, Kat. We also spent some time with some friends and had a little joint birthday party for our friends who are twins and myself. It was a lot of driving, fun, and getting out. And I really over did it every day. It makes me so angry that I can't just get out and go shopping and walk around places with friends when they come to visit or we go to visit them. I always end up in so much pain I feel like I am either going to pass out or vomit or both. But I keep pushing and trudging along, hoping that things will get easier even though they never really do. Still, I just can't give in and give up.

I haven't done any crafts or made anything new as far as culinary items go. I do feel the urge to do many of those things and I think it has to do with the fact that its spring and we're getting warmer weather. I find that I want to go play out in the bit of woods near my house and clean it up from the hooligans who trash the area. Ooo and I really want to go sit out there on nice afternoons, listen to music, and write. But I will have to find a chair that I can sit in comfortably for a long period of time.

I haven't written much in the last couple of weeks since we've been busy. I will begin making a list of blogs that need to be written and then execute the list in the coming weeks. I have a whole back log of stuff that needs to go up for both of my blogs and even for the Detangled Writer's blog. I will also be working on my novel and the plots for a couple of other novels.

But for now, for today at least, I am going to have the dinner my friend is helping to make and then when Skoora gets off work, we have to take her home. After that, I'm going to play Guild Wars and watch a movie. Tomorrow, I'll probably be cleaning as much as I can and start decorating for Easter. 

Foggy Brain

Yesterday my doctor's nurse called me and wanted to know if I would be comfortable upping the dosage of my Fibromyalgia medication. I said that I was and so I was instructed to take an extra pill in the morning. I am back to having a semi-foggy brain and being sleepy and sometimes lethargic. That doesn't really work for me as far as writing goes but I am going to try and fight through it and see what I can get accomplished.

As it stands, I don't have too many plans for writing today. I left off in a good place the last time I worked with my vampires so when I open the document and am ready to tackle them again, I'll just be able to pick up where I left off with no problem.

I've been feel a pull and tug to start working on one of my fantasy stories again. It's a little weird, when I work on that story I sometimes feel a tug to work on the vampires and vice versa. I suppose I am going to have to do what I used to do when I lived at home with my parents and have several documents, each of them different stories, open all the time. Or at least the notes pages.

I spoke with both my parents, one of my aunts, my grandparents, and my cousin Shi-chan today. It was really nice and I learned something interesting about an ex-abusive-troglodyte of Shi-chan's sister. Seems he'd gotten out of jail and was going to get pulled over by the police. He, of course, ran and drove through a private property fence, jumped out of the car and jumped into a sand pit that was full of water. So far they haven't been able to find his body. If he died in there (from drowning) then his body will resurface in a few days. If he made it out no one has heard or seen hide or hair of him. Honestly, I hope he died. It would be karma for all the horrible things he did to my cousin's daughter, to my cousin, and to my family.

On a lighter note, it's a really nice day today. I am planning to try to go for a walk after Skoora and I are finished at the library. There is a nice park near where we live that abuts the river. There are several little paths we can take to get to the water and I think it will be nice to sit for a few minutes and just watch the river flow by.

Well, I'm off to get a few letters written. 

Back from birthday trip

View from my hotel room

I went with the gf, her mother, and her aunt up to a casino north of where I live for my birthday. We did a little gambling, went swimming, sat in the dry sauna and the hot tub. I played Guildwars with my Dad and some people in my alliance while Skoora finished up her MFA homework. It was very relaxing and the only thing I felt any real pressure to do was decide what I wanted for dinner. 

However, I came back with something, a cold or bug of some kind. I feel terrible today! So what did I do? I went to the store and bought some 'make me feel better' treats. We bought strawberries, cheese, mini peppers, coffee creamer, pizza rolls, and grapes. We also picked up two scary movies from the Red Box, Sinister and Possession. 

Both movies were good, creepy, and I am happy to watch something a little lighter before bed. Not that Criminal Minds is any lighter but Skoora's mom snagged the TV remote before I could do much about it. I will probably vacate to the bedroom pretty soon. Since I want to be well before this weekend, I had better get some sleep. 

I can't remember what else I was going to write about... I am trying an experiment in cheese dying. I am trying to make green cheese for St. Patrick's day. I have no idea how this is going to turn out, if the cheese will be any good, or if everyone, including me, will turn noses up at it. 

I have been very very bad or good, however you look at it.

My Lich costume

 I have been so terrible lately. I haven't worked on a story, novel, or any blog posts for Detangled Writers, Crimson's Crafts and Culinary, or even this one in the last couple of days.

Why? Because my Dad talked me into joining an alliance with a real go-get-er guild. They do Urgoz's Warren, Fissure of Woe, and lots of faction farming runs. (we are Kurzicks by the by). Dad and I have been in The Jade Quarry the last two days turning our imperial faction from battles into Kurzick faction.

So far between the two of us, We've pumped in a 800,000+ faction into the alliance. And in doing that, along with our allies, we are helping to keep a town and discount merchants and the like. It's really nice. Plus we get to play with and talk to some really nice people. They do some training and teaching, show what skill combinations work best for them, and frankly, they've got me wishing I had more level 20 characters of other professions to swap out and play with  with them.

I've been a little of wary of joining any alliances because most of the time when I am in towns and have local chat on, I don't like a lot of what is being said. I also used to be in a guild and alliance (after I left to make a guild with my Dad) with a couple who happen to be the brother and sister-in-law of my girlfriend. There's some bad blood between us on account of what they did to my girlfriend's parents, how they've treated us, and even me separately  but I'm not going to get into that, it's done and over with. And I have been a little hesitant of joining another alliance because that meant socializing with people I didn't know and I don't do that very well, actually have a phobia of it.  Most of the time people either piss me off or worry me.

My Dad and I.

Moving on, I guess I need to do some recruiting for my guild. I have Kat, but she's been busy with school. I thought I had another friend but the game she got for xmas didn't work and I don't think she is going to get another one and play, which is okay, it's no big deal especially since she is also in school and really trying to crack the whip on herself to write. So, I have been putting up recruiting messages on my facebook. So far, no one has taken me up on it. I was thinking of trying it on my google plus account, but I am a little hesitant to do so. Three people, I don't know have added me in the last two weeks with no messages, and as far as I can tell, one of those is people might be spam. I haven't added them in return. I feel bad about it, but until I get more info out of them, I'm not going to pretend we are friends and invite them into my little world.

So, I think Dad and I will have to talk about recruiting, the when and where, and maybe take lessons from the leader of the FaT guild.
 

That's a bunch of us playing in URgoz's Warren

Oh and before I shift gears away from Guild Wars, yesterday I was in The Jade Quarry and someone sent me a whisper in German. I think, because they had a German name, that they were, well German. And since my character name is German, well you get it. Anyway, I have no idea what they said and since I was away from my computer at the time and they were gone by the time I got back, I couldn't ask. And of course, I forgot to write it down to translate it in google translator or even ask a friend who is taking German. In the end, I thought it was really cute and was and still am really tickled. 

All right, sleep. Oh boy, sleeping has been interesting. I've been conking out pretty quickly and sleeping very hard. Still having some wild dreams thanks to the new meds, and waking up in the morning is rather interesting. I seem to find myself asking "What the hell was that dream about?" and also, "Will you make the sun go away, I want more sleep". That dreaded day star doesn't make me happy, especially when it's not hidden by clouds first thing in the morning. I am not a morning person. I am worse after the five to ten minute internal convincing that has to be done to make myself get up and out of bed. I just pretend to be cheerful or nonchalant toward my house mates while the truth is, I am mentally smacking them with frying pans, pouring hot coffee in their laps. Okay, I'm not that bad... wait, yes I am. Heh heh heh, guess you'll never know because I'll never tell.

My birthday is coming up. I will be spending it at a casino north of where I live, mostly for the swimming and the nice balcony I can sit on and watch the river. Yes, I'll do a little gambling, but I'm really not one much for it. I hardly ever win anything and if I do it's so little and I almost never walk away with more than I came with. I really just want to relax and finish the books I borrowed from the library. Okay, and yes, maybe even play Guild Wars for a little bit while I am there. 

On a side note, I am going to make a list of crafts I want to get done this spring and then have two days where I do nothing but write about them and then do a craft blog dump, but schedule them, so people aren't spammed with them. I also have to do the same for Detangled Writers and I have several I want to do for this one.

What is this, dirt bike day?!

View out my patio door.

It is lovely it is here today. The clouds make me very happy and it's generally nice outside. I opened the patio door to bring some fresh air in the house. We have a large lot across the street from us that is for sale. There are trees and brush, someone has left some stuff and some people like to dump their unwanted crap there. Aside from the trash, it's a really nice lot except for today because every idiot in the area with a dirt bike is out there. I wouldn't mind it so much if I didn't have to hear it. There's just something nerve grating about the inconsistencies in motor rhythm. I don't rightly know how to explain it but to be sure it's fucking annoying. I can't even shut it out by closing the door. 

Next to said lot, there is a wooded area, kind of like a mini forest. It's the place Skoora and I love to drive through. Since it's so nice and provided that it isn't raining and my back isn't so bad tomorrow, I kind of want to go out and clean up our spot and maybe have lunch there or even dinner. I just really want to get out while it's nice. I'm tried of sitting in the house and only going somewhere when we have an errand to run. I love the library, don't get me wrong, I just want to do more than just go to the library all the time. I figure half an hour outside, away from the house, will be nice too. I'd go for ten minutes. 

As usual, I'm not making any progress in trying to get things done. Part of that is due to my back and today I have a migraine. I was going to take a shower when I woke up but I decided to have breakfast first. While I was eating I ended up with a very needy kitty on my lap. Yoda has been so clingy in the last couple of days. He follows me around the house, meows at me, and pretty much insists on being either right next to me or on me. It's really cute. But, I need to go take a shower.

The good news is, I have managed to get some pictures edited and will get some prints ordered soon. Aside from reading and writing, my next goal is to get the craft and culinary blog going again. 

This side of haggard

Please forgive any and all errors, I am too tried to edit this...

My new medicine, the one for fibromyalgia, is helping a little, and believe me every little bit helps. However, it sure does make me tried and I certainly seem to exert some form of energy trying to fight against the drowsiness, which in turn just makes me exhausted. It;s kind of like I am too tried to stay awake and just awake enough that I can't sleep. And since it feels like I am running on fumes, I haven't been doing so well in staving off panic attacks or rationalizing with myself enough to keep myself from getting overwhelmed.

In the last week or so, I've panicked about writing and not writing enough to suit the new, more manageable goals I set. I've freaked over how long it's taken me to write the first chapter of a novel I am rewriting and reworking even though I know the characters very well. I've even been upset because I feel like I can't relax enough to write because I've been doing it earlier in the day, at the library, and I keep thinking of everything I still have left to do in the day.

I've also been upset because I'm not reading as much as I'd like. I'm not doing the crafts I'd like or keeping up with blogs. I've had a whole slew of bizarre and unsettling dreams. I'm becoming overly critical about food again in the way that no matter how healthy the food is and how small a portion, think each meal will make me gain a pound. That's really dangerous, especially because there are times that I haven't eaten enough and then get sick, weak, and shaky. Funny, how I've been trying to balance the right combinations of food, cut the portions down, and eat more than three times a day and I still can't seem to lose weight. Don't worry, I'm not in any danger of hurting myself food wise. I'm not that stupid. I still eat and I do not throw my food up. It's the thoughts in my head that aren't very good.

Anyway, all of this is I'm usually pretty good at rationalizing and working through, even if I have to vent about it for a bit and just get it off my chest. I usually feel better and can look at it differently afterwards. But not recently, not being so tired.

I'm pretty sure I scared my Aunt when I called asking to talk to my cousin Sheena the night before last. I was crying and when I started to unload, which I usually never do with my Aunt, she woke my cousin up and I talked to her for a minute before my Dad called. I cut my call with my cousin short and then spoke to my Dad. As you can guess, I ended up unloading on him, at which point he told me to put the phone down and get one of my nerve pills, and then come back to the phone. After awhile I started to calm down and when I was, I left my room and finished cooking dinner.

Today is going to be a doozy, I can tell. Neither Skoora or I could sleep last night so we gave up and decided to work on somethings. But we are so tried that we aren't getting anything of any value done. I think we are going to give up, set an alarm, and try to get a few hours of sleep before ramming the rest of the day a little later. I bet we can get a good solid 4 hours in before we really have to be up.

I do have some good news though, I have some really nice new pictures of my cats, and I am going to order some prints. I want to get some for myself and order just a few of the really nice ones for friends and family. Here is a teaser pic for my friends...

It's Galen and he was laying on the book I was reading.

       

The night is dark and full of cats!

Ellie-belly

Forget "the night is dark and full of terrors" as the Red Priestess from Game of Thrones always says, the night is dark and full of cats. Three of them to be exact and all three demand that I feed them and then get my ass to bed so they can either lay on me, my pillow, and or around my feet.

Yoda-chan

I really should be in bed but unfortunately I am staying up long enough to see if money came and if so then I need to go to the store. Groceries are a necessity and I really don't want to fight the 1st of the month shoppers tomorrow. I don't do well with people en-mass, they are loud, pushy, and down right rude. I can sleep when I get back and then even sleep in since I won't have to spend an hour or two tomorrow shopping.

Galen-Monster

I've been spending almost every afternoon at the city library. It is marginally quieter there, well until the kids get out of school and then things are a little iffy. I didn't know this until a day ago, but there are actually employees whose only job is to walk through the library and monitor what goes on. Kind of like library bouncers if you like. It's actually really awesome, so when a group, and it's always a group, of kids gets rowdy and loud, one of the monitors comes along and shuts them up for a bit. But I think from now on, when Skoora and I go, I am going to make sure that we rent a private study room by the time the kids get to the library. It will just make things easier, I think.

Speaking of the library, I applied for a circulation clerk position. It's only 10 hrs a week but it is a start and I wouldn't be lifting too much. Also, it's a library job and that's one of my dream jobs.

Well, two minutes until I know if I am going shopping. See ya later.