Merry Chistmas, Happy Yule, and all holidays celebrated this season to all!

Happy Holidays to everyone! I hope everyone's holiday season is warm, thrilling, and filled with fun and laughter!

This year my holiday season is going to be spent in the Pacific Northwest, where I have recently moved to as most know. I've had the blessing of seeing old friends that I had moved away from a little over two years ago and spent time with my girlfriend's family. We will be spending Christmas attending the Christmas Eve Mass at her parent's church. I'm not Catholic but I don't mind attending simply because I enjoy the music and find other religious services interesting. We will also open presents on Christmas and because my family always cooks a really nice dinner for Christmas, I'm going to cook a big dinner for my girlfriend and her parents. That said, I'm cooking roast, green bean casserole, home made mac and cheese, stuffing, and apple pie complete with salad. It;s not as big as I would like and not nearly everything I would like to cook but we are doing it all on a budget.

For New Years Eve we are having some friends and family over. I'll be making snacks for the gathering which are the common holiday staple of chex mix, a ranch oyster cracker snack, cheese balls, a veggie tray, cheddar and bacon stuffed mushrooms, and teriyaki glazed bacon wrapped around water chestnuts and green and red pepper slices. We are going to play games, drink spirits and wine, watch movies, and chit chat.

I can say that I will miss my own family back in Kansas. I've missed them since the day I left and it's been very hard to be away from them. My anxiety and depression haven't been an easy thing to deal with and some days have been worse than others but I'm getting along.

The kitties will probably hate me come Christmas morn. I was told by my girlfriend's mother to pic out some stocking stuffers for them. They don't really eat treats and don't play with all the fancy toys but rather with more simple things like string and paper and plastic bags. So I bought them little pet costumes. *evil snicker* I'm am going to enjoy taking pictures of them as they glare at me.

Almost hugging the computer vents...

Today I am so cold! It's 25 degrees F outside and I'm sure not much warmer in my house. My girlfriend's parent's like to keep the place near frigid. I've got a blanket and a coat on and the chill is creeping through and digging it's claws into me. Of course it might have something to do with the fact that I took a shower today and haven't been able to get warmed up from that. And it won't help when we take one of my girlfriend's little cousin's to the lake to walk on the boardwalk and see the Christmas lights in a bit. Since we've had company all weekend I haven't done my homework but I will get to it tomorrow.

Also, I went from a place that had lots of wind to a place that's suffering air stagnation. WTH?!

I've been watching movie trailers today, just to see what's going to be coming out and what has come out that I need to look for in the video stores- it looks like we are going to have to get netflix again. Deciding to be annoying, I spammed my facebook page with trailers of the ones I want to see. I figure if people can spam me with endless liberal propaganda, then I can post movie trailers. I am thinking of spamming them with some classic rock like Bad Company, Kansas, and Blue Oyster Cult. For some reason, I'm just in a classic rock mood. I think that may be because I'm missing my cousin Sheena so much. Everything would be better if she could be here to hang out with.

Yesterday I learned that my Grandma Summers died via text message from my Dad. She was technically my Foster Grandmother. She was my Mom's foster mother to be even clearer. I wasn't very close to her, she said some things that really upset my mom when my little brother died so Mom didn't really let me go over and see her and Grandpa. It's just as well, one of my mom's foster sisters is a total bitch and looks down on all the foster kids Grandma Summer's took in. Personally I think she's just pissed because her name is Petra.

Major Rant!

I'm not settling in in the pacific northwest as easily as I had hoped. In fact I think it will take a lot longer than it did last time.  I've been really depressed and every time I get upset, I've been turning to food of some kind to soothe me, which isn't really like me... until now apparently. People I thought liked me completely ignored me at my girlfriend's family xmas party. That was upsetting and the whole thing made me feel extremely out of place. Also my girlfriend's parent's have made me feel rather awkward. I offer to cook and offer suggestions of things i can make and they want to change things on me. They aren't happy with my recipes, its like they don't want me to cook some times but when I do cook they always tell me how good the food is. It's really confusing. 

Then there is all the noise. Mom-in-law is constantly talking over her husband and he's always complaining  about what isn't done and what needs to be done and my girlfriend is being obnoxious or carrying on conversations by herself or with me... I can't carry on a conversation with any one, I can't even finish a sentence. Just having some trouble trying to find a comfortable place. It used to be in the kitchen cooking or cleaning here and there but I'm starting to think that I may just have to confine myself to the bedroom when it's finished.  

On to politics. I'm conservative, a lot more so than a lot of my friends and maybe it's because I was brought up with different values, the location in which I grew up, or any number of things, but being conservative up here seems to be a dirty thing. I hate it. I hate feeling like I am going to have to change my political views to accommodate everyone else. I shouldn't have to and I should have the right to talk about my feelings and beliefs as much as anyone else. Frankly, from I have seen of the oh so glorious liberals is unless you agree with them, you're stupid and have to be reeducated. And they think they have won an argument just because I refuse to argue with them anymore. They aren't right, they haven't won, I simply don't have the energy to deal with them anymore. And I am so sick of everyone butting in and telling me without saying out right that I am wrong because I refuse to vote democrat or agree with democrat ideals. Really, this is getting ridiculous and I'm getting sick of it.

And whatever happened to regular, fun facebook status messages? Nearly all of my friends are posting political crap on their facebook, especially on the Occupy Wall Street bullshit. There is protesting going on all over the world and we're the only country whining about money and entitlements. WTF America, WTF?!

Honey Mustard Mushrooms and Ice Cold Showers!

Well, I've been here in the Pacific Northwest for a few days and I don't feel any closer to settling in than I did the night I arrived. I am transferred and enrolled in ITT Tech up here and know where the school is and such. My bedroom is starting to look like one, we've got the bed up and everything else is well, everywhere. As it turns out we will have to get a new bed frame but we are going to tough it out on the one we have for the time being and just be very careful.

Aside from missing family and friends terribly, I'm getting the general teasing from my girlfriend's father about being a native Kansan. Most of the time it doesn't bother me but when I am emotional I tend to be upset by it in the most irrational ways. I never say anything, I just keep quite because I know I'm just having a bad moment. LOL! I'm not even having bad days now, I'm having bad moments and that's because I am on an up and down emotional roller coaster. It certainly doesn't help when my girlfriend's father keeps the house colder than shit on a stick in Antarctica nor when the shower in this apartment is working against me. I swear every time I have taken a shower I only get five minutes of warm water and then it's raining icicles. So, I haven't had the best of luck in the shower department. And the toilets are terrible. You practically have to plunge them every time you use them! I don't have the best regards for this apartment and I don't think it has the best for me either.

Last night I finally got to make dinner and feel a little bit useful and normal again. I made a chicken and rice casserole, green beans, and salad. Yesterday at the store I decided to try Honey Mustard salad dressing and lo and behold I love it! I've had honey mustard before for chicken strips but not for anything else. As it turns out I love it on mushrooms. I kind of want to know what it would taste like on deep friend mushrooms but I'm not sure I want to go to the trouble to make them. More like I don't want to clean up the mess.

Well, I'm soon to be off to help a friend and her lab partner with a social experiment in the mall. They need a lesbo couple to walk around and hold hands so they can get the public's reactions of it. Since my girlfriend and I are the only lesbo couple they know of who would agree to this, we are up. My girlfriend thinks their experiment will be a little messed up because my girlfriend and I are fat and for some reason the world doesn't believe that fat people deserve love and worse they think it's disgusting when fat people touch. You know what, I've never had a problem with fat people, even when I was skinny, so who ever put that idea in my girlfriend's head is narrow minded or I am incredibly naive.